Here’s to you, my sweet DQ, on your birthday

28 January 2010 440 views 8 Comments

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Tonight, as the rain pelts down on our roof and our children are all tucked in asleep in (our) bed, I can’t help but lose myself in thought. Today marked six years since I became a mom for the first time to a living, breathing, squirmy, healthy, sweet and cuddly baby girl.

It wasn’t easy. I was beaten and bedraggled, drugged and groggy, swollen and sore. I didn’t get to see my baby for the first five hours after she was born. I got one look then she was whisked away to the nursery for a bath. I slept, and when I woke up I vaguely noticed something was amiss. Then I remembered: I had a baby!

I didn’t know what to do. I read everything I could and listened to the advice of my Mom, and tried to do the best I could. I know I made a lot of mistakes. I know I still make a lot of mistakes.

But if she only knew how much she meant to me, I think that would make up for it all. I hope she does know, even though she doesn’t show it. I hope she knows that even when she is not with me, she is in my heart and in my thoughts and prayers. I hope she knows she always will be with me, no matter what separates us. I hope she knows that I am in her heart, too; I have claimed my place and I’m never relinquishing it.

I hope she sees herself as I see her. As a lovely, charming, spunky, precious, headstrong girl. As a fighter. As a true innocent, who always sees the best in others. As a helper, a little momma bear of a sister, a protector.

I hope she grows up to be a lovely, charming, spunky, precious, headstrong woman ready to take on the world.

I hope she doesn’t grow up too fast.

I love you, my little DQ. Happy Birthday!

Love,

Mom

8 Comments »

erica
Twitter: mommysstillfab
said:

You need to print this out for her to keep in her special memory book or something… beautiful!

# 29 January 2010 at 7:17 am

Lynsey
Twitter: sassynsouthern
(author) said:

Thank you! …now where did I put that memory book? Just kidding.

And on a totally unrelated note, I love your avatar.

# 29 January 2010 at 9:28 am

Lynn Mitchell said:

Nothing like crying first thing in the morning. That was so beautiful. She will cherish this for the rest of her life. I know that little girl and she is remarkable. She is so smart and has a unique personality. Why? Because she had a Mother who loved and cared for her even though she didn’t know what to do sometimes. All Mothers can relate to that. I love my little granddaughter very much, who is really a carbon copy of her mother. So, I’m also proud of my daughter whom her dad and I have always told her how very special she was in our lives. We love you. Mom

# 29 January 2010 at 10:17 am

Lynsey
Twitter: sassynsouthern
(author) said:

Awww…thanks, Mom! I love you and Dad, too!

# 29 January 2010 at 2:09 pm